2011:

My new year's resolution is to be good enough for ONE day to go by without my parents arguing over something that I've fucked up.

Guys, I know that I'm not perfect.

But I'm trying awful hard.

I just want to smile.

I just want everything to be okay.

I know where I get my weight insecurities from.

And a lot of other ones, too.

I wish I could be better.

I wish things were just that simple.

I wish I could believe in God.

But I can't.

I mean, I do.

But I don't think that He believes in me.