"I am going to take this bucket of water and pour it on the flames of hell, and then I am going to use this torch to burn down the gates of paradise so that people will not love God for want of heaven or fear of hell, but because He is God."
— John Green (Looking for Alaska)

That's what Christianity should be.

It's the religion I so desperately want to be a part of it.

But, it Does Not Exist, and that's what makes me so uncontrollably sad on a daily basis.